Is Cancer Evil or a Blessing in disguise…

I know I’m a little late again with this entry as the day has already come and gone.  However,  I feel I need to write about the event after a little time…to really process what the day meant and how it really resonated with me.  In Particular, I speak of Diwali:

“Sometimes it’s hard to see past the darkness in this confusing world we live in.   May the light of Diwali help take some of that darkness away & illuminate your life with joy, prosperity, health & well-being. May all the abundance and good in the universe lead us from darkness, to the light.” anonymous

I have gone and still go through times when I have dark days and it can become very challenging to find the light.  During my treatment in Germany, About there was a period of time when my family could not be with me and I had to undergo chemotherapy and hyperthermia treatments.  Needless to say, without my family it was difficult until I met my friend, Alexander.  I would never have met him had I not had the “evil” cancer.  It was definitely a blessing to have crossed Alexanders’ path at Dr. Herzog Clinic in Germany.

He brought his beautiful energy and light, not only to me, but to everyone around him.  His beautiful ora brightened the room and his positive energy was instantly felt by those that crossed his path.   I would like to dedicate this entry to my friend,  THE BRAVE Alexander King Paul.

Thank you for giving my the strength during my dark days and now for watching down on me. IMG_3801

An example of how Beautiful he was, take a look at this link:

In addition to being a my friend, he was an artist, a poet, a true inspiration.  Alexander was an extremely talented and gifted spoken word artist.

So how did I end up in Germany you ask?  Well, when my family and I heard my cancer had spread to the liver, my Beautiful sisters were very quick in researching and finding the best course of treatment for me.  Based on the CT scans and how much it the cancer had spread, we decided to embark on an adventure to Germany and seek out a treatment called Whole Body Hyperthermia.  That’s right, Bad Salzhausen, Germany!  A small spa town just North of Frankfurt.

Last November, my husband and I packed our bags and decided we were going to do this!  So my youngest sister packed up her 5 month old and was adamant on coming a long with me!   Her mother in law immediately volunteered to join us and we all set out to the DrHerzog’s Fach Clinic.  A clinic that offered multiple therapies including Full Body Hyperthermia.  So what is it exactly?

Whole Body Hyperthermia (WBH)

The healing effect of fever has been known for many centuries.  Whole body hyperthermia (WBH) is a new treatment using the well-known principle of fever in a therapeutic way. There are different ways of action:

• Fever to activate the immune system

• Heat as thermic damage of cancer tissue

• The thermic increase of the efficiency of chemotherapy

• Moderate Whole Body Hyperthermia – stimulates the immune system.

I would like to say the treatments were a success as I am sitting here sharing this with you lovely readers.  I had 5 rounds of WBH (whole body hyperthermia)  with a low dose of chemotherapy .  After 5 treatments, my CT scan had shown the tumours in the liver had significantly shrunk.  Unfortunately, due to the Toxicity levels in my body, five was the maximum number of treatments my body could endure.  I hope someone seeking alternative therapy may find this helpful.  Please feel free to send me a message or an email if you would like more information about this treatment or the clinic.  (Dr. Herzog or it’s clinic is not paying me for advertisement, it is just something I feel I should share as it helped me get her today.)


Giving Thanks

There’s always a silver lining … beauty among the chaos.

I know this is a little late, however its never too late to be thankful when you have so much to be thankful for.  Thanksgiving in the Bains household is usually a combination of great food, better company and a bit of Chaos!  (perhaps an understatement).

This summer, we had some additional news that has brought our family even a little bit closer!  For people who know the Bains, this seems almost impossible!   But it’s true.  My Father in law, the gentle, giving, spiritual, calm man was diagnosed with Glioblastoma, an aggressive form of brain cancer that can’t be slowed or cured.

We live in the same household.  Be sure to read my Bio as I explain the dynamics of our living situation, the big Beautiful extended family.  About.
He has been my number one cheerleader, always giving me words of encouragement and support to get through my own cancer journey.  How do I help a man who has been my pillar of strength?  He is Brave, I don’t need to tell him.

How much F*&^%#$ Cancer can one family endure? My kids and my nephews trying to deal with all this!  How do we do it?  Well, one day at a time and always looking at all the things we have to be thankful for.

While taking a stroll in Greys Park, Anaiya, my youngest had a great idea!  She collected some beautiful fall leaves and suggested we go home and glue them to a blank card and everyone in our family can write what he or she is thankful for.  What a great idea from a 7 year old!  So during the chaos, Sunum and Anaiya, and all of my 9 nieces and nephews wrote what they were thankful for.  We sat outside around the fire pit and each child and adult shared what they were grateful for.  Everything was beautifully written!  All the adults were moved and a bit surprised that their kids had written these.

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We got through this thanksgiving without additional chaos and not focusing on minor details such as what type of table-cloth, center pieces or  matching napkins we should use! Who gives a F*&^ !  Lets focus on what really matters: the love, the food that was prepared with love and the people I love: The Beautiful who inspire me everyday!

Cancer 2.0

Your cancer has metastasized to the liver.  A bold statement of deliverance from the ER Doctor.   Is my heart still beating?  I can’t breathe, the Doctor’s voice is a dull murmur in the back.  The emergency room is not as chaotic as it seemed as while I was waiting for the CT scan results.  I’ve been here before, however this time its different. Ironic that the Doctor who has announced this news to me is Dr. Rose, but all I feel is the thorns.  I feel pain and simultaneously I feel nothing, a numbness has taken over my body.

I brought myself to the ER thinking acid build up or gas?  How could I be so off?  I usually have good intuition.  I am by myself this time.  My Husband is at work, thinking the same thing, probably acid or gas.  I try to get myself together and try to call the best person who can handle this news and deliver it to the right people.  I call my Brother in law, hoping he can contact my husband so I don’t have too.

My sister, brother-in-law and husband come to take me home.  This is when they tell me everything will be alright.

Be brave they tell me.  Me, who am I ?  I, the Bald.  Who are they? The Beautiful.   The Beautiful surround me, the people who give me the strength to believe, give me the strength to keep moving forward. The Brave are my fellow cancer peeps that are going through treatment or been brave to endure the treatments but moved on.  I dedicate this Blog to those of my friends that were Bald, Brave and Beautiful that have passed on from Cancer.


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