Your cancer has metastasized to the liver. A bold statement of deliverance from the ER Doctor. Is my heart still beating? I can’t breathe, the Doctor’s voice is a dull murmur in the back. The emergency room is not as chaotic as it seemed as while I was waiting for the CT scan results. I’ve been here before, however this time its different. Ironic that the Doctor who has announced this news to me is Dr. Rose, but all I feel is the thorns. I feel pain and simultaneously I feel nothing, a numbness has taken over my body.
I brought myself to the ER thinking acid build up or gas? How could I be so off? I usually have good intuition. I am by myself this time. My Husband is at work, thinking the same thing, probably acid or gas. I try to get myself together and try to call the best person who can handle this news and deliver it to the right people. I call my Brother in law, hoping he can contact my husband so I don’t have too.
My sister, brother-in-law and husband come to take me home. This is when they tell me everything will be alright.
Be brave they tell me. Me, who am I ? I, the Bald. Who are they? The Beautiful. The Beautiful surround me, the people who give me the strength to believe, give me the strength to keep moving forward. The Brave are my fellow cancer peeps that are going through treatment or been brave to endure the treatments but moved on. I dedicate this Blog to those of my friends that were Bald, Brave and Beautiful that have passed on from Cancer.